On Holiday. II

So, I didn't get the chance to continue my last blog post before today. Well. Yeah.. So. I'm on a thing called "candy vow" or "candy break", wich means that, if I stay without candy for a whole year (except for two days that I get to choose) I get a certain amount of money, wich in this case means 1000kr (sek). And guess what! I only have about two months left of the year anymore! YAY! (Jan. 14).
This is the last day that I'll spend here in Tammerfors... The train leaves at 3 o'clock, so I only have seven hours left to wait. (By the way, I'm talking Finnish time here). And after about.. sixteen hours I'm home again.. That's really sad.. I've been thinking about moving here.. Well not excactly here, maybe into a small flat near a school with a Swedish class in.. If there are any... That'd be really nice.. Because, I don't really enjoy living in Sweden. It's a bit compliated... I mean, I've been living in Sweden for my whole life, and still I don't feel like I belong there.. Weird.. Well. yesterday me and my cousin where shopping down town, I found a present for my brother who have just had he's eighteen'th birthday, it was very pleasant to spend time with Tansku (my cousins nick-name), she's almost like a younger and taller copy of me^-^ so she understands my opinions about almost everything. Now I'm going to clean this place up, so that I get to come here again. ByeBye.

On Holiday.

Hello everyone. I've finally got the chanse to update you about the happenings in my life. So.. On Thursday morning I woke up with a cracked lip and a bruise on my cheek bone, I wonder what I've been dreaming about. I had practical working experience at the upper secondary school again, only this time it was at the "Children and leisure time" department. I've got to admit that it was much more fun than the first P.W.E. So I've started to doubt my desicion about going to choose the "Buisness and administration" policy. Maybe it'd be possible to become a English teacher in Japan.. I really hope... Yeah.. well.. On Friday morning I woke up 4 am and packed the rest of my things. After that we left to the train station. Our sitting spots were in the play vehicle, so the next seven hours were a living hell. Children screaming, laughing and crying all over the place... When we arrived to Tammerforsmy cousines dad was waiting for us at the station. It was really nice to meet him after souch a long time. So I've been living at my cousines place for the last three days, it has been so much fun! Yesterday I got to eat candy! Oh damn! I have to go now, but I'll continue and explain later, maybe tomorrow! Byebye!

School!

Right now I'm sitting in school, having a free period, waiting for the next lesson to begin. These computers really are lousy and SOO slow, it's kind of hard to write with this keyboard too. The day has been very boring, almost half the class is practising working experience at the upper secondary school, tomorrows my turn again-.- for some reason I don't really like it. Everyone stares and they look down on you when you're walking across the hallways... It feels really un pleasant. Besides I don't like the school in its entirety.. a nasty place, as you can read in my previous post. Yesterday evening I went throgh some brouchyres of Finnish schools. I think that Finland is the right place for me ^-^ Even though I've heard that it's a lot harder there... but I'll manage! I mean, if I can survive for even a whole year in a Finnish school, then I'll manage a year in Japan too! But now I've gotta' go! Bye-bye!!

Wich upper secondary school will I choose?

Hi everyone!
My day has been very interesting. I've been to the upper secondary school at a practical working experience in the business and administration programme. To be honest the classes weren't as interesting as I'd thought, but yeah.. the reason to that, probably is that I'm not a bit interested in bookkeping nor marketing. So I'm gonna try finding a policy that's only about languages and tourism, and I have no idea if there's a place like that. Though one thing's for sure, I'm not gonna stay here for a moment longer than' I have to. The school I wisited had small dim classroom's and the teachers didn't seem that great. I really hope that I get out'ta here soon! I was thinking about moving to Kalix, a small, simple yet nice place, or maybe study in Finland, that wouldn't be so silly...
After the upper secondary school practical working experience, I went to a friend called Sesshy, this was the first time I wisited her house, after they'd moved. The house was really pretty, if I'd get to choose, I would live in a house like that.. I mean.. yeah it was a lot smaller than the one she lived in before, but the new one just feels a lot more cozy. We listened to music, ate pockys and some weird fish snacks, that didn't taste like fish at all. We also played Mario cart and Super Smasch Bros on the Gamecube. It was loads of fun! At the time of 15.30 I had a meeting with the political organisations board committee, we discussed the past years activitys and came up with new plans for the coming months and the spring, year 2009. After the meeting ended, we had another one, but this one was the womens' social network's kick off- meeting. We were only four persons because, unfortunately Lisa-chan couldn't come due to illness. Right now we're working really hard to get the net thrown wider^-^ So now I'm home, and I've still got a lot of things to do, for example, to pack my stuff, I'm going to travel to Tammerfors this Friday and I'll be staying there almost for a week, so I doubt I'll have any spare time to blog in... Or maybe I have.. My cousin's at school on the days... Well.. We'll see^.^ I think I'll go packing now.
Goodbye, and G'night!

Yo.

Hello again, this is the second post for this day. I still don't have anything to write about, so I think that I'll keep this short. So what do you think about my new profile? I spiced it up a bit. I got to admit that I like it more now, it doesn't look so dull anymore ^-^ My day hasn't been special at all.. I woke up.. about 12.30, and still I've been tired the whole time. One of my dad's friends even asked me if I had a hung over, I was like' Dude, I'm underaged -.-'' , I guess that I wasn't looking so good... ^.^'' Well yeah.. By the way, I've forgot to mention the list of my friends blog's that I have at the end of my *full profile. They are wery interesting to read, you should do it! Then you'd maybe even get a better vision of my life, and a more complete image about some of the people that I write about. They're all great persones! Oh.. I didn't notise that it's already Sunday now... So I guess this is the first post for this day.. Well got'ta go 'n sleep now.. Bye!

yawn!

Good morning everyone!
I just woke up and tought that I wanted to write, even though I don't have anything specific in my mind... Well as you can see in yesterdays blog post's comment, the game we play'd was *Eye Toy* and not "Eye Game" ^-^
Right now my head hurts like hell, because I slept too long ^.^'' Hmm...
My weight has began to jump up and down again, wich is really annoying, because one day I can weight about 50kg and then the other day it has increased to 56kg, and then it drops again.. I really don't know what to do about it :/ My friend suggested that I should start eating on proper times, maybe I should try that out.. It's just a bit hard, because of my "tight" schedule, geez.. now I sound like a buissness woman ^~^'' Well if you have any good advice, don't hesitate to comment :)
Well I think I'll go and grab some breakfast.. Or should I maybe call it lunch?.. Adiosu!

Birthday party!

Hi! I just came home from Lanko-chan's birthday party. I feel a bit sick, but it was so much fun! We play'd Guitar Hero for hours, I got to admit that it's one of the most amusing games that I've ever tried. We also play'ed Eye Game, I highly recommend it to those who want's to lose weight while playing a game^.^ Right now I'm trying to watch a movie named "How to loose a guy in ten days" I've newer seen it, but it seems good, so I'm not gonna write so much.
Ya' know..Something really weird happened to me this morning. I woke up when the clock rang at the usual time (6.10 am), I sat up and pulled my pillow to the madrass... I don't really know what happened but when I got up from my bed and gave the watch a glance.. I bet I looked like this *-* because the time was 6.35am. I really have no idea about what had happened, I mean I sat exactly in the same position as when I first took the pillow before I stood up from the bed... I think I got like a black out or something... I haven't slept well since the school started, just like four, five hours a night, that's probably the reason. Well I'll see if I can find some streight to write later on the evening or tomorrow. Bye'bye!

Happy!

Hi!
Today I've been unusually glad, like over the top, glad^.^ When I woke up I thought I was gonna' die, but after a while I started to feel happy and I couldn't stop smiling... I really don't know why, well... yeah, as I've said earlier, I have a pretty weird morning temper...
So this day started with a long mother's language lesson (Swedish), our teacher is great! She let's us work at our own pace, so it's really nice. Even though she makes us read books that are a bit uninteresting, it's pleasant. The second lesson was in maths. We got our test results back, mine were fairly good. There is this one guy in our class that is always on the top when talking about maths grades, when he got his results back he went kind of pale, and got severly depressed, so I asked him what the matter was, and as it turned out he had almost flunked the test, it's propably because he hasn't really took a active interest in the things our teacher has told us on the lessons, but mostly it's propably because the test was the far most difficult one we've ever had. Our lunch in school was meat soup, and there was fish in the salads, so I didn't eat much. After the lunch we had our class in 'Language choose', wich for me means English (I used to have French, but the way they teached the language didn't really work for me). The lesson was ok, I get to pretty much work like I want. After that I and a few friends went to the bus stop, in order to get to the P.E class. And as we stood there in the gray rain, the bus stop started to get crowded. So when the bus arrived, it was a pure hell*-* Everyone push'ed everybody, just to get inside the bus first. And when we finally got inside, there was only two spots left to sit on, and we were four persons, so we all forced us into these tiny little sit spots, and tried to stay alive -.-'' It actually was really fun^-^ And when we got out of the bus, my butt hurt really much after it had been squeezed for so long^^'' The P.E was fun too! All I had to do, was to sit on a madrass with Lisa-chan, and count wich lap the other ones were on (it was the ''Cooper'' test, I did it last week). After that our day was over. We got on our bus back home, and when I finally got home, I didn't really do anything...
Now I'm going to take a shower. So Good night my friends =)

School life. Japan.

Hello everybody!
These last three days I've been seeking for information about different student exchange companies on the internet. And I've found about four different ones that I'm gonna try my luck with. What has this to do with the school life? Well the thing is that I'll have to re-take a college year after I return to Sweden again, because the courses I'll be taking in Japan doesn't match with the ones you have to take here. But it doesn't really matter ^.^ So I've been studying really hard to get good grades, so that my chances would increase among all the persons that'll apply for the places. I really hope that there's a place for me!
When I told my mum' that I wanted to go to Japan and study for a year, for the first time.. I was about 12 and a half years old. At first she didn't even take me seriously, she thought that it was just one of my ideas that'll disappear as fast as it came. But after a while she realized that I was serious about it, so she accepted it.
Yet today my relatives and friend ask's me once in a while if I'm really gonna do it, It's allmost like they don't understand that I can be serious about a thing like this. Yeah.. Well.. I'll try to find another topic to bore you to death with... Lets see...
Well my friend who doesn't approve that I dislike children, was really pissed off after she'd read my last post. I tried to explain to her that I can't help that I don't like them, I mean, I don't like fish because it tastes like fish, I don't like sausage because it's sausage.. By the way.. that part with I don't like fish.. I've improved wery much in eating it, because about a month ago I couldn't eat fish without feeling sick. But today I ate a pretty big piece of salmon (wich is the fish that I hate the most) without any spasms in my stomach ^-^ Ya' know that Japan is a country that you pretty much live on fish in (okay maybe not just fish...) anyways... I've decided that I'll be able to eat fish normally before the year ends^^, ... Ehm.. yeah.. I'll try at least...
I bet that right now you're thinking "Why doesn't she do the same thing with children?"
Well ya' know.. I really don't want to eat kid's. I'm sure that they taste even worse than sousage.. I know, that was a pretty lame joke -.-''
Well right now I'm watching a program called "Parlamentet" on youtube, I really recommend it to all those who likes to laugh their ass of. Though they are in swedish, but there are subbed parts too. I myself perfer the parts with Björn Gustavsson and Johan Glans in, they're so funny!
Later on the evening I'm gonna watch "Hål i väggen" (more known as 'Human tetris') and "Stor i Japan" (big in Japan) from the tv. Unfortunately I'll miss Parlamentet today, because mum' wants to see the Finnish Idol's semifinals -.-
Well.. now I'm going to read some manga, and study for the maths test that was moved to monday, and the social studies "History, World war two" homework test. So C-ya!

Hey!

Hello, minnasan.
My internet has been out of function for three days, so i'm really glad that it's fixed now! Even though I don't really have anything to write about, I'm still gonna try find some weird toughts or happenings I can torture you with^.^

Dreams... We all have them, there are many different kind of dreams. Small dreams, big dreams. Some people want to be famous, some people want to get a loving companion and find a place to settle down. The dreams are important to a person, even if you don't always realise it. To crash somebodys dream is one of the most horrible things you can physically do to another.
When I was little, my dream was to become a singer.. I've always wanted to be a person who can physically bring joy to other persons, to make them laugh and to make them feel good about themself. That was my dream.
Nowdays I've got a bit more specific dream a bigger one. I've never wanted anything so bad as I want this. I want to be able to go to Japan as a exchange student, so I could have a insight of what the life really is like there, I want to be able to experience the holiday weekends, the school life and the people.
I want to know and experience everything about Japan! Hihi.. I sound like a Japan obsessed person.. Yeah.. Well I guess I kind of am. But still that's the far most biggest and strongest dream that I've ever had.
Have you got one? If you have, then what are you doing to acieve it? Think about it. If you try as hard as you can, then I'm sure that you eventually will reach you're goal. I at least hope that (ehmm.. because I'm really trying hard)...
So think about it!

Right now I'm sitting and watching my lil'sis play. She seems really kind, when she doesn't open her mouth. She's a pure devil, hidden inside of a angels cloat. I really dislike children. Yes.. I don't like them just because they're children. My friend has tried to explain to me hundreds of times, that I can't hate children, just because they're children.. But even if you'd put it that way.. I still can't stop dissaproving them. They cry, they're stupid and they're just annoying.. I really hope that I'll mature enough someday to be able to like children.

Mew..This blog writing really is good therapy. Even if it makes me seem wery dark minded, and brings out my bad sides, It really lightens up my mind. Wich is kind of weird.. I'm just writing down my toughts.. Yeah..
Anyhow.. I hope you'll be able to reach up to you're dreams! Work hard!
Tomorrow I've got a maths test so I gotta go study now!
Bye-bye!!

Tired. Tired. Tired...tired...

Hi!
As you can read in the title i'm wery tired right now. But i'm still kind'a happy.. Strange..
My day was a bit different than usually. I got the results from the diagnostic test I did on friday, to be honest, they were much better than I had expected.. With thought of what horrible pain I was in when I did it (stomach ache) . On a range from 1 to 10, it propably was a 8 (when it gets to a 9, I start to vomit ^-^). So there's not so much I have to practise in front of the maths test on Friday. I found this book about William Shakespeare's life story, and citates (or what you call them), it's really interesting. These ones is my favorites so far:
Go with me like good angels to my end; And as the divorce steel falls on me Make of your prayers one sweet sacrifice, And lift my soul to heaven.
And:
Shipwreck'd upon a kingdom, where no pity, No friends, no hope; no kindred weep for me; Almost no grave allow'd me. Like the lily, That once was mistress of the field, and flourish'd, I'll hang my head and perish.
Aren't they pretty.?
Hehe.. When I found this book and readed these two "citates" to a friend, she cried out loud: ''Your' not that depressed!''. She told me that she had readed my blog and tought that I gave out a way too depressed picture of myself, I was like.. Woot? You really think so? I mean i'm not depressed at all.. I guess that i'm just a bit too tired ^-^ wich makes me to write a bit dark things... funny...
So.. I visited the physiotherapist today, she did all these weird things with my arms, legs and back. She didn't know what's wrong with my spine, so she told me to come back after two weeks, Monday 20/10 -.-'' I'll really die, if it continues like this..
Tomorrow we have P.E... I so love that class.. Can you feel the irony in my words. However.. I don't have the energy to write anything else right now.. Man I really sound depressed! XP
G-night!

Good evening.

As you can read in the title, I just wanted to say "Good evening" to everybody who is reading this blog post. I've been all worn out this weekend. Yesterday I was on a birthday party, wich was arranged by my two wery good friends, L-kun and Madde-chan. They're twins so naturally they're born on the same day. It was loads of fun, but unfortunatelly I had to leave early because of the baptism, wich was fun too. But it was just much more formal than the party.
I haven't got the streinght to write much right now, I just feel so sleepy. Even if i've slept trough the whole day, I just can't find the right words to express my feelings and toughts right now. I even can't spell the words right -.-'' So I think that i'll try writing tomorrow again. If I have some left ower time after the back rehab check, and karate training-pass.
Good night! Sleep tight! (I doubt I will..).

*-*

Hello everybody!

To begin with, I want to apoligise about the long break between my latest blog posts.

The internet has been out of operation for a few days so I haven't been able to write anything.

So to continue where my last post ended. My visit at the hair dressers place went pretty well.

My new hair style isn't that much different from the one before, because I just had my hair done a bit shorter and I didn't dye it. Though I got three hair extension locks, two of them are light green, and one is the same colour as my own hair, blonde with a slight touch of orange (okay, it's not my real hair colour.. It's dyed), but anyway.. My hair looks much longer now.. funny isn't it?

That was my monday.

Yesterday I had my first karate training session, for this [school] term. It was so much fun!

Even tough my body aches from all the excessive exercise, I still love it all! The spasms that some times grips my arms, the hurt of the training, the feeling that I've been striking too fast for too long. I love it all.

I guess that i've found my "physical" passion.^-^

I was thinking about commence at ju-jutsu but then my brother (who practises the art) told me about their training sessions, and I kind of changed my mind in a instant, I mean, there's no way that my body would be able to handle two extreme training sessions after each other (the ju-jutsu session ends two hours before the karate begins).

So I guess that i'll just have to stick with the karate alone... Or maybe I should start practising something like.. Some sport that I would be able to "develope" my body musculature in. Maybe athletic or something like that. Well anyways.

Today i've felt surprisingly happy. Last night I stayed ower at my brothers place, so I had to walk to school this morning (it takes about thirty minutes), and I just couldn't stop smiling...

I really don't know why... I guess that it's because my life has been going on a bit better than before, it doesn't feel as heavy to live anymore^^ Yesterday when I took the bus into town, the bus driver only charged two thirds of the real price (yes he did that on purpose) and it just made me so happy. To know that I wasn't the only one who really tries to be nice to other people, lightened my chest a bit. Because sometimes it just feels like that. Like I would be the only one who tries to make up other peoples days so that they don't need to feel as miserable as I some times do. I know that that's not true.. but anyways...

I was finally able to go shopping with my mom' alone, no little sister whining and making her angry. Just me and mom', it really felt good, it has been a long time since we last did that.

We got the precents for the baby i'm gounna be Godmother to... I really look forward to Saturday, 'cose that's when the baby is going to get her name :) And of course, that's Malin and Madelene's birthday! They just invited me to a party.. or something like that^.^

I've just finished my maths' home work (a piece of cake).

Tomorrow i'll go and try find some new pair of jeans to wear at the baptism.. That's not gounna be easy.. How could I say, my tighs isn't that thin, so it's hard to find trousers that dosn't make my ass look like a barn-wall.. -.-''

Well thank's for reading my blog post today! Hope you enjoyed it! I'll try to write a bit moor tomorrow. Good-bye! Sleep tight!