Ohisashiburi!

Hello, it's been long since the last time, around eleven days... right? I'm not so sure about the title of this post, there's a big possibility that it's all wrong, so please, don't pay too much attention to it ^^ Under this (post) gap of eleven days, I've done so much that I even can't remember the half of everything. Etoo... Let's see... Well, I've been so tired, that I've slept a few hours after each schoolday (mum' doesn't like this :P), I've also worked my as off with all the school projects, especially the Swedish and Society knowledge, which both had pretty big assignments... What do you think of the title "Japan through the times"? Too much of a cliché? Well a good friend of mine once told me that adults like clichés, so I chose this as the title for my Junior high degree assignment in society knowledge (it was in Swedish, though.) The whole projekt turned out to be a "success", I'm very pleased with the outcome of all of my hard work, it was worth it^^ Okay... that sounded a bit egoistic... Like "Kiss my feet, you low life people. I'm soooo good -.-'' style... Eheh... Have you ever felt that you've had enough, even though you've been incredibly close to the finish line? That you just can't stand it anymore? Well that's how I feel at least. Especially when it comes to the teachers, my patiense with them has totally ran out. I'm just so fed up with their crap. Like yeaterday one of our teachers forced me to skip the English and P.E class, just because she wanted ME, not anyone else, just me (okay there was about four other students too) to work on a f**king presentation movie of the week in Lingen... Ya' know what the worst part of everything was? Well there was many XP For example that we were forced to crowd in an incredibly small room -without any form of air conditioners, that barely could hold three little tables, around two computers, for three whole hours without any kind of permission for stepping outside of that little smelly box, kind of thing-.- At first we were around ten people pushing around in the room, but then some lucky individuals managed to escape and in the end there was just four people working on those (two) movies (the other one was about our meeting-places in this town, as if there were any -.-''.) This may soud like an easy thing to do, but imagine four people sitting side to side (incredibly close to eachother) in a room that could've passed for a sauna... horrible. When I finally "had" to leave that place (teacher couldn't stop me XD) the nagging hag got pissed off at me (I had to leave for the bus that I ride home with every day)... Sometimes I'm so happy because I live in tha´bushes (still most of the time I'm not)... It totally saved me yesterday ^.^ Yeah... this was about everything I guess... And by the way, pardon me for my freakingly´, bad English won'tcha´. Everything is a bit stirred up in my head right now, I woke up around 3 o'clock Am. and haven't been able to sleep after that... Yeah... And I've also vomited twice -.- Talking about freshness XP ...And watching Japanese dramas definitely doesn't improve my English ^^'' Now once again I'm of to the... TOILET! Bye~

Good evening.

My dear friends I have the pleasure of informing you, that once again... I'm tired -.-'' *Yawn... I woke up around eleven o'clock this morning... ever since, I've been wandering around the house like a zombie ^^ This day has been incredibly pleasant. The weather is so pretty and both of my parents are at home :D We cleaned the front yard and Dad´made some BBQ for dinner... So nice :) Quality family time - That's what I call it :3 I've been chatting with a Japanese guy from a language learning webb-page, he's going to teach me some Japanese, in exchange I'm going to teach him English, good deal huh ^^ Nice to finally get someone to teach me (at least) the basics of the language! God I hate to live in a socially restricted place like this -.- And don't worry, I'm not going to give him any personal information about myself... That's what my parents told me not to do... Sometimes I really wonder how stupid they think I am...? Well yeah, it's true you can never be too cautious... Ayways, I don't care if he's a psyco-maniac or pedofile as long as he's nice and willing to teach me ^_^ So the summer has (almost) finally arriwed to the North of Sweden! It's around 19 celsius degrees in the shadows outside! Yattaa!! And once again I have to evaporate! JaMata!~

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Aww... My eyes hurts -.- I'm so tired that I hardly can keep my eyes open... It's been like this for a few days now. Mum' says that I'm depressed or something XP The truth is that I've just grown so tired of this everyday life... People are so tiring : / Sometimes I just feel like shouting out "F#*x off freaking hypocrites" loud to everybody ^-^ So shameless humanes can be... Well I'm not going to waste any effort on those kind of people :) Today I went shopping with a friend of mine in the hope of finding a dress for the breaking up, but I ended up buying a pair of trousers that fit me perfectly :D Lucky! It was incredibly fun to shop with Murvelludd-chan, she had her own opinions about clothes and we found many different articles of clothing that would've been sooo nice to afford buying ^^ Just gotta´wait til´ I become rich :3 I'm off now! (dad has made some delichious dishes of fish, butter and potatoes) Umee :D XOXO Shizuka-chan

The final start.

And here we are again. Some things never change huh... The school days has became a mere bother, we don't learn anything and yet still we have to go there every single day... I'm really looking forvard to the 12:th of June (this is when our school ends). I skipped a class for the first time in my life, today. I figured that this was something you have to do at least once before you've finnished with the junior high... So true... You propably wonder why? Well the real reason for this was that we didn't have a music lesson (which was supposed to be before the "skipped" lesson) so we had an hour spare time there and it would've been compeletly pointless to go to the class where the teacher only naggs... I can't stand her -.- So I decided to take a well deserved break XP and go watch the guys play football instead (yes I am going to do the things I missed as home work... not that it would've been anything important)...
I feel happy... But still not relieved. The sun is shining brightly and the summer is headed full speed towards the Northern part of Sweden, but I just can't let go of the freaking exchange thing... Ya' know, it's time to apply for a visa to the country... Incredibly complicated... *Oh' I have to go now, but I'll be back.. someday... (hopefully)~

Difference.

Have you notised a thing with "friends"... When they start smoking and drinking alcohol, they're like "oh you're so brave when you don't fall for group pressure" and yet after they've said this you slowly begin to slide out of the "group", you become one of the least popuilar persons, and in the end you'll be left behind and always forgotten. Fun huh.. Just because of some intoxicant subjects... Talking about "true" friendship! Lovely... This was some thoughts that suddenly just hit me, so I decided to write it down for you and maybe I could get to know your opinions. Do you think that this is what happenes or do you have some other views on this thing?~

01.08.09

The first of August is the setteled date for my leave abroad. After we've arriwed to the country, I'll participate in a three weeks long language camp (soft landing camp, as it is called) in Tokyo, so It'll be a good kick of for my year in Japan ^.^
Tomorrow we have our national tests in chemistry... I'm pretty sure that I'll flunk this one, because it's my weakest subject and we haven't had it in... two years I think.. I can't think of anything else to write about, so I'll just let it be like this for now ~

Solitude hurts´. Right?

Hello my dear friends. I'm finally back from the long (two days) jurney, to and from the Explorius "get together" in the capital of Sweden. It was fun... I spent over two days just with my father, which is something that I've never done before. Before we left I got to meet some of his working colleagues, and what surprised me the most were that they all knew that I was leaving for Japan... This may sound a bit strange but I was "moved" by this... Yeah, sure.. He spends fiwe days a week with them, so what was I expecting...? But still he seemed so proud when one of the colleagues began talking about that... It had never even crossed my mind that he'd be proud of me... I had always thought that it was incredibly bothering for him, because of all the money that is required for the programme.. So we drove for twelve hours to get to Stockholm, where we stayed over at a aquaintance persons place. Then in the morning we got ready for the meeting (that lasted for fiwe hours) and after that we sat into the car and drove back home, this time it only took nine ands a half hours, so we arriwed home four o'clock in the morning. That is the reason why I just woke up... I'm so tired! Well.. well... I'll go and grab something to eat now. JaNe~ oh by the way. The chick that's responsible for Japans students, told me that I have to learn 50 kanjis and to keep an one minutes long introduction about myself, that may not sound so hard... but you can't even imagine how difficult it is... BYE~

Dead end.

These thoughts just keep on coming. It's something I can't stop, no matter what I do... And they all end up at the same point, that will say; I don't want to attend to school after this last term. I've tried to find options, but it all seems so boring... I want to do something with my life. And that something doesn't include studying all the time. My hand still hurts´ a bit, the reason for this is that I tripped while playing basketball alone... On a pool of mud -.-'' The humiliation didn't end here though. Almost the entire Finnish parallel class was watching as I did this ^^'' Luckily my clothes didn't get dirty... But my hands were all covered in mud... Still I just got up and continued throwing baskets... I think that I'll do this tomorrow too (without the fall) :D It's so much fun! There's tons of school assignments that are just waiting to get done by me... I just can't seem to be able to gather enough energy to do this XP Well.. gotta' keep on trying. There's only approximately one month left... Now I've gotta´go to bed. Still, you know I love you XOXO Shizuka-chan XD

Reason..

To write a novell aka. short story... What should I write about.. Love? Life? Sacrifices? Death? Future?... Myself?.. There's too many subjects to choose from... and the lack of imagination that I possess is a big problem too. This is a homework assignment that has to be made til' tomorrow... Wonder if I'll make it :/
I've been wondering how people succeed with keeping themselves skinny? Because for me it's (not that I want to become super skinny), no matter how much or little I eat and exercise, I'll always stay as a "normal" sized person XP Wonder how it feels like to be skinny? Is it as great as everyone seems to think? Maybe... I would like to try it out :D But yeah.. Who cares... The size doesn't make a person less or more valuable. Everyone is equal, don't you think?
Lately I've bumped into many persones who seems to think that the people who blog are complete idiots who live for make-up and alcohol... This makes me sad... It isn't true, so why should everybody be labeled into that group of people?.. I think it's kind of pathetic -.- Well...Well... Children, it's time to go to bed now and I'll maybe, if you behave, continue the story of my life tomorrow ~Good Night~

Life is wicked..

I'm sitting here infront of the computer trying to do anything possible to get my mind of the exchange thing... But it's all just a bunch of wasted effort, I just can't stop wondering about the family I'll recieve... Will I have as good luck I had with the German family? or will I even get a family?.. it's been over a month since I sent the letter to the company... and there hasn't been a single message concerning the family... I'm going all crazy thinking about this -.-
Yesterday evening something creepy happened... Or at least I think happened. When I went to the kitchen to get some water, I notised that there was a cutting board with a plate and a bowl on top of it, on the table.. This scared the crap out of me because I have no remembrance at all of such a thing... On top of that, I've never even seen the chopping board before :/ So I can guarantee that I haven't used it... It can be that my brother has put them on the table... but how come I haven't seen them before yesterday evening? (brother left Friday morning)... Yeah... as you may have notised I'm going all nuts ^^'' Well... luckily there's school tomorrow, so that I won't have any time to think about everything... :P Now I'm off~

Repeated words.

I'm home alone again... and I'll be home alone for the next... two or three days I think. It's so boring~ But I like staying home alone ^^Because you can do wathever you want to without anybody notising :D Well yeah... It's nice to have little time for yourself... but that's only a little! o(_ _)o not three days...
On Friday next week, we'll be leaving towards the capital of Sweden, just to find ourselves in a four hours long meeting with the exchange company on Saturday... We'll apparently go there by car -.- Haha* now than I glance through the post I see that it's all messed up XP Sorry for that, I just woke up. ~

Reality...

My blog mostly consists of questins... and yet so few answers. Is life as cruel as it's said to be? To me it seems like a fairly good place to be living in ^^ .... By the way, how was your Walpurgis night? Mine was pretty uneventful -.- Right now I'm having really bad agression attacks against this freaking keyboard... It's kind of broken I guess... Wonder what brother did to it last night :/ They're about to leave now, so I guess that I'll go and say goodbye to them and of course you too~