Fed up with Ham :P

We wish you a Merry Christmas~ We wish you a Merry Christmas~ We wish you a Merry Christmas~ and a happy New Year! (^o^)/:. I'm soooo psyched up for New Year! (not the actual year, but the Eve ;D).Christmas Eve was awesome! I didn't recall Christmas being so nice! I worked on my assignments most of the day, but just the fact that everybody were gathered for the same purpose at the grandparent's place, was very sweet. It felt so cozy... this traditional yearly event^^ Okay, I have to admit that it'd been pretty sour if it weren't for a certain uncle Linus (just a nickname xD)who kept me company through the entire day (and coming night) ^^ --> cellphone :D Speaking of which! I finally got a new cellphone!! :3 (my old one broke down a while ago, and I've been using a crappy piece of shit ever since then >.>). It's soooo~ nice! Love it <3 Even though it's not one of these fancy new touch screen thingys´:P I also (to my boyfriend's and... pretty much all of my friend's joy) got all the Twilight books and movies in English for Christmas present (an Eclipse soundtrack CD too!) xD Wool socks from my cousin, ten packs of pockys´ from sweetheart,Ulquiorra<3 poster--> Uncle Linus, Cellphone-> parents´, some household stuff and so on :3 Perfect is all I can say :D
It feels so strange... Two really good friends of mine are getting married this coming year... And for one of them I'll even be the bridesmaid ^^ (okay, the other one's a guy... me as a bestman? Maybe not xD). Also, my uncle's getting married in January too... I don't know, marriage just seems so out of reach for me... I've finally found someone whom I seriously love and want to spend every second of the day with, but the thought of marriage just hasn't crossed my mind :o Though, I've really began to anticipate the school ball! :3 I want to wear a beautiful dress and walk hand in hand with the most handsome man~* And later on, PARTY!!! xD nah, just joking~ ooor? ;D noo... For marriage there's just too much required, much that I do not have...
Well I'm off skyping with Uncle Linus~ Bye~ :D

There is more to life than simply increasing its speed.

Someone once told me to prioritize my life, freedom- or the glory of a high education... If there was to come a day when these two paths would separate, would I then be brave enough to choose the one I really yearn for? Though, would it really be courage, or just mere foolishness?
Would I be a fool to do as I so much yearn for: apply for a spot at a local shop of some sort and just live for the moment, or should I- against my inner wishes- carry through with the education, in the hope of something greater... Something to be proud of?.. *A glorious but lonely life?* Isn't that what it all is about in the end? Become a "pro", and forget the wish for having a real family, a happy relationship? I mean, look at them all, world wide known surgeons, lawyers, professors... all alone, almost every single one of them. Loneliness indeed is very frightening... No matter which path you choose to follow, you're brave huh?
''Is it your life or everyone else's?'' Is another question he posed. It is true, thus I had never before thought about this, as Ghandi once said: "A 'No' uttered from the deepest conviction is better than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or worse, to avoid trouble" - This is what I've been doing all my life, uttered "yes" in order to avoid conflicts with others. But, if I keep on bending and shaping myself into everyone else's molds, what will my life turn out like? Good question ne :o
Well, for all I know, I'm loosing the hold of my reality, my structure, and my security. But it feels good, "the bubble which I once created around of me, has now burst, and left me in this whole new world which I cannot wait to explore". :) "the world of an almost adult" ;D Well, well, we'll see what this life eventually has to offer me ^^ Good Night peeps´~