Falling through the clouds towards reality...

It's as if I'm falling through the skies towards the flat, cold surface of this hard reality. This world of lies, dissappointment and numbness.. How did I get out of it before? When nothing works and everything's just falling apart, your world comes crumbling down as you just stand there watching the pieces rain all over your frozen numb body. What was it in the past that I did to become happy again? Was it this new home with C that I'll loose in a couple of months? Or was it the new boyfriend whom I thought would treat me as I deserve, and yet turned out to be just as insignificant towards me as the last one? Maybe it was the new upper secondary school policy which I with so much anticipation began attending, and which now stresses me out and leaves me no freetime at all?.. What kind of change do I have to go through this time? A rapid one maybe? Leave this life behind and live all alone in an own flat somwhere else... A place where no one can bother me.. My day's been very hectic, my first test took place already early in the morning, followed by another one, and then I had to run to a meeting with my careers officer. We discussed the possibilities of me supplementing upper secondary in two years instead of three. Luckily my mentor believes in my ambitions (is really pro hard work) and does everything in her power to help me out. Well, I gues we'll see how it turns out in the end. After this meeting I had a class, which I in the end did not have to attend at all. Later on the evening I've been searching for a job (for the summer holidays) and for an apartment to move to before the upcoming semester... On Wednesday I'll have to pay the doc a visit again. They screwed up my ketamine blood samples which means a new session with the needle, there also were a few samples which indicated to something fishy going on inside of this body of mine. Soooo, I'll have to molest them again. And! Tomorrow it's back to work! From 11.AM until 17:30PM... a loooong, loooong day, that's what it is. Well, well, I'll be off to the bed where I shall sleep forever alone. Sleep tight peeps~ (The Easter Holidays are closing up btw!! <-- Anticipation of dooom!) Bye~