神様へ！お誕生日おめでとう！

Here I am again. Finally maybe picking up on the blogging again? Who knows... If only time and space alows me then maybe I can write some uninportant things here every day ;3 Today was Kami-samas 19:th birthday! Omedetou!! We celebrated this by going to Akihabara and blowing up all of our money on traintickets x.x (they cost us a fortune!). Btw. "we" were; Amabi, Kamisama, Yuu chan and me. I enjoyed it a lot, even though I perfer the "a bit" less crowded parts of Tokyo. Well you know what they say "good company makes the day" or "it's not the place, but who you're with, that decides whether you want to be there or not"... Can't remember the shorter version of that later one =P I met some new people today again (through my host family). There's this one question that always comes up... and I never know the answer... "Why did you come to Japan?". To be honest, I have no idea. Or that was what I thought until a few moments ago... When I once again in the boredom of not having anyone to talk with, was watching movies on youtube, the truth kind of tissled into my mind... I came here to fall in love. That's the thing that I've always, through my entire life been searching for. In the animes, mangas, dramas - everywhere. The hope of finding something small to hold on to, a little hint or a nice smile, that would make me feel important for some reason... All, worlds filled with different kinds of love. Sadly enough, that's a truth that people usually don't want to hear if they ask you such a question. The perfect answer would be that the culture which has a firm mixture of past and present and the language whichs origins no one knows about are so mysterious and captivating, that you just had to come to the place where this is all from. Or something like that >.> Right now the time here is 1.27 AM. I've began concidering that the fact of going to bed might not be as a horrible thing to do. Seems like my Englis's getting completly whacked up... I'll stop this excursiating failure of trying to bring a bit clearness into this blurry mind of mine and go to bed~お休み～

01/01-10 .Ready for life.

Even though the New Years Eve passed by sleeping in my bed (with a fever). It was something that I'd never experienced before. It was so boring xP No, it actually wasn't the Eve that was something new, but the morning that followed. Exactly at the second of New Year, the bells in the temple (that lies right beside of our house) began to ring. The deep sounds of the huge bells kept on through the whole night (which sort of creaped me out and made it difficult for me to sleep xS). When I woke up at 6 o'clock in the morning, it was still dark (and my brother with his friends were still awake). But after I got out from the bath and went up to my room, I could see how the first strips of sunshine creaped in between the shut curtains and out on my carpet. When I then hurried to pull the curtains to the sides, a flow of golden light washed over me and filled the room with a magical glow. Glancing out of the window I felt something peaceful fill me up from inside. This was when I noticed the stillness that had took over the whole city. After I got out of the house, I came to the conclucion that this had to be one of the most cold mornings so far, but yet, even despite of the flesh freezing cold I felt warm and ready to face the new experiences that this new year is to bring with it. ~