Shortcuts in lifetime.

Helloooo Minnasama.

I'm back xP

It's been a while since last time... 2 months? Yeah, well, that's the time which I haven't been able to be on a computer, on. So I've been here in Japan for a little more than 2 months now. There's happened so much that I even can't remember half of it... So I guess that I'll just try to make a short summary of that time... Okay.

The first three weeks was spent at a language school in Tokyo. On the first day in Japan I received my host family, which consists of 5 people (that time 6 though) . 3 children = 2 girls, age 8 & 7. 1 boy, age 5. Mother 32 and father 30. 2 dogs and a big aquarium. The 6.th person was a German girl. Came to Japan the same time as me (she moved out after a month). This familys' house is located in the West (?) part of Kawasaki. So, that's where I've been living up until now.

The far most strangest/scariest/funniest experiences so far here are: When a transvestite (old man with a blonde wig, tights, skirt and makeup) began reading Hamlet (?) in English, out loud in the train when he saw me... This was scary... he didn't even look like a woman =.= a total failure -.-" Luckily I only had to ride it for about 5 minutes... Second one... ah! Becoming friends with the owner of an Latino-club (in Roppongi)... The strange part in this was that even though he knew my age, he promised that me and my friends could come there for free, anytime xD Yuh... Oh! and I just have to include this! Japanese people get drunk so fast! xD Seriously. a pretty quiet friend of mine (18yrs), drank about 4 cm (dunno' how much that's in ml) from a normal sized glass (25% alcohol, blended with something (?))... After that he was compeletly wasted xD He talked so much! And the best of all was that he smiled and wasn't tired at all for the first time x'D Hmm... Things that I've eaten so far ex. Inside of an cows stomach, jellyfish, ice cream in a bag thingy, kakigori (ice thingy), mocchi, sweet beans etc. Every single one of these experiences was sort of unique... But all of them are yummy except from jellyfish and the cows stomach. ^^

My school is called "the rusty kingdom" by all of the exchange students... that's because, that is exactly what it is. But I love it... We have school uniforms. A navy blue skirt, black knee high socks and a white shirt... Oh! can't forget the ugliest shoes that I've ever seen and even worse, have to wear! Green Uwabaki... jurusanai... But they're only for indoor use =)

My class is 105 (ichi maru go) and my classmates are all really nice... Though they think that I even don't know the colors in Japanese -.-" I've joined the tea club in school, it's interesting... I love rooms with tatami mats =3 The smell is so good... We have this teacher that almost everyone hates because he's mean on purpose (that's why I just can't bring myself to hate him =P) he told me that I'd better watch out not to eat too many snacks (in the tea ceremony there's always snacks) or else I would get fat, and then he sucked air into his mouth and made the cheeks go all round. But because my cheeks already are as round as they are, I just replied "Dakara" with a smile (that's why) and patted my cheeks. His face was so nice that time! It was written all over it like "why is she smiling!? Why doesn't she look unhappy and sad!?? I just called her fat!!" He's nice. yet, I've so far only managed to make real friends with Japanese guys, the girls are almost completely impossible to get close to, unless you can talk the language fluently. But i think that I'll manage in the end... :D Ganbarimasu yo!!

Hmm... Haven't got a boyfriend yet. But I have a guy that I like in the same school... Though he's a third year student which means that he's out of my range... IS what I'd usually say! if he wasn't a friend of mine xD wahaha! I'm so good! No... sorry for that.. Right now I'm sick. (have the influenza) so my mind is a bit corrupted =P Okay. So let's go to the present life here. I've been sick since Monday. From Tuesday to Friday I had to stay in an hotel (because of my A Gata influenza). As highest my body temperature (fever) was up to 39 C degrees and as lowest to 35 C degrees. I've just recently started eating again. Which means that I've lost about 2 kg of weight during that time. But now I'm completely healthy again! Still going on drugs (medication) but healthy =) I'm temporary living in Kanazawa bunko, in another host family (my real one has gone for a trip). I wouldn't mind staying here for the rest of the exchange year though xP The mum (only member of family) is so nice! and she only speaks in Japanese! I've already learned so much from her!... And this is close to school... Oh yeah! I forgot to tell you. My average day here starts at 4.50, when I wake up and get ready for school. 6.00 I'm out of the house, walking towards the closest station (30min) after that I ride 4 different trains for about an hour and an half to get to the school that starts 8.40. Still, I like it... The trains are nice... yeah. I think that I'll end the post here. But I'll probably come back later. Bye"*

Full moon.

There's a full moon outside right now... It's so beautiful. And just to complete the mood, I've began watching a drama called "Vampire boy". So far it seems good... An asocial, handsome guy who can play the piano as the main character, isn't too bad. Yesterday I managed to cut my finger, while trying to open a jar of tinned white beans in tomato sauce... It kind of hurts now...
Two days from now, I'll (hopefully) be in Japan... Landed just a moment ago... On my way to the Japanese language school, to the brief meeting and after that the real adventure begins... Substitute host family´s, long beaches and loads and loads of new people (who hopefully will like you).
Have you ever heard the saying "There are three people in the world who look like yourself"... This actually is a fact and not just a saying... I wonder who the three other persons that look like me, are? Where do they live? What's their names?... Are they happy? *saa...*
I've never before wanted to stay home this badly... Nor have I ever felt this kind of urge to leave... Strange, huh... Scared for the unknown, but yet longing for it.
I've lost around 2 kg of weight in a week, not too bad, huh..? Just (at least) 7 more to go and I'll be satisfied.
The article in NSD didn't turn out to be so bad. Even though I looked like a dai-hana freak in the picture... and the other reporter seemed kind of pissed at me...(?) Well, not everyone can be satisfied. No matter what you do, that'll never, ever, happen. Good Bye~

Butterflies flying.

*Just noticed* I haven't blogged in a while (again). The family trip went well. Even though I hated pretty much, every single moment of it. Luckily we're back home again and even though the time is crawling by, it's only 3 days until the departure date :) On Thursday I'm going to stay over at my dad´s workplace in the "hospital city". It's a "factory camp" where he lives from Monday to Friday every week. Then early, on Friday morning, I'll be flying far, far away from this present life of mine... I don't know whether to be happy or sad...? I'll leave my friends and family behind for almost a whole year. But still, I'm heading towards a compeletly new start, a new life... A life that I can make to whatever I want to... This is where the real battle begins... Is what Shinonome Mei´s Grandfather told her. Kind of fits into this situation of mine. ^^'' I've had the two interviews now. Hopefully I won't look too stupid on the pictures (as I usually do). All of the packing are finished and I'll get my visa along with my passport on Arlanda. Everything seems to be working out quite well... But still it feels as if there's going to be something blocking my way to acieving my dreams... Maybe just self conciousness? Whatever I do, things tend to turn out wrong. So, it's pointless to get your hopes up on anything. The feeling of dissapointment... it hurts too much. That's a thing that I've learned a fairly long time ago. I've spent this day with Jonna-chan. It was somewhat calming to have her around... (?) Wonder why :) That's a friend to be cherished. I wonder... Ima wa minasan ni nani o shitemasu ka... (propably not even right -.-). The first 3 weeks will be spent with people called a "Welcoming family" in other words, a substitute family in Tokyo. Well, for the time being, I haven't recieved any information concerning the family... I'm pretty sure that no one wants me xP. Who would? A complete stranger living at their place, and on top of that, a stranger who doesn't speak the language -.-'' ... One of the reporters asked me what kind of expectations I had for the coming year... That's when I realized that all of the earlier images and stuff in my head was gone. I have no longer any kind of special thoughts of what'll be awaiting me in the future... Just the one and only thing that I'm sincerely hoping for: That I'll become fluent in the language. Everything else makes no difference. ^^ Though, I'd love to make a bunch of new friends and have the time of my life. =3 Yeah. I'll propably update you later if I'd happene to recieve any kind of information. Oyasumi~

Shinjinai.-.-.

I'm sad... I've been halfly depressed for the whole day, but now I'm just plainly sad... The day passed like a light breeze... I'm alone, that's what I've been for the whole day too. Everybody left arond 10 am. It's just me and the dog Rasmus... I came to think of the death of Timi and Tomi... Two bunnys that I used to have in junior high... Without any reason they just died... That image of them laying in the cage, is still clear as a painting inside of my head... Geh... Now I feel sick :P Think I'll go and grab something to eat ^^ On Tuesday well be on the ferry :3 So I think that this'll be one of the last posts of this month. Oh.. By the way, yesterday I got a call from a man who works at a newspaper called Haparanda bladet... Why can't they just let it be -.-''
I'm off!~

Okashiiiii

That was pretty strange -.- I checked my e-mail some minutes ago. There was a mail from a reporter of the newspaper NSD. Apparently she wants to do an interview on me because of the exchange thingy... Sounds like something that I've heard before... At a hamburger-bar down town... *ah* It's nothing... Just getting some flash-back´s... :P So, anyways. I thought that I'd give her a call tomorrow. It's too late for it right now.
Mum´ kept her promise :3 We went to the mall and I got a new, incredibly cute (!), pale blue dress. ^^ OH! I almost forgot! The day for my departure has changed, again. It'll be the 7:th of August. I hope that this is the last change...
Yuh... My feet are somwhat sore. I was smart enough to put on my sandals, instead of the comfy´sneakers... I'm no good with high heels :/
hmm... come to think of it... I propably won't see any of my friends anymore... :( On Thursday, I'll be leaving off to Tammerfors, where I'll find myself laying around for the rest of the week... Then we'll take a ferry to Stockholm and spend the rest of our time in Norrköping... 2 of August is when we'll come back home... The rest of the time... I propably will spend it in this room of mine... Filling boxes... and emptying the space. Wonder what'll happene to this messy hole, after I leave...? Hopefully mum´will take the chance and make it into a "book room" ^^ After all that's what she's always wanted to do. :)
But, now I'm leaving! Have to do some chores ^^ Baibai~

Haaaaiii*

Duh* So tired... Z.Z It's finally over! My (late) birthday party! It's FINALLY OVER! *haa*... Being around people really makes me tired xP. Hmm... I've been thinking about getting myself into "beach shape" which simply put means "loose a little *cough* weight" ^^ I wanna´be able to look nice in the "Japanese Hawaii" where I'm (propably) going to live in a month or so. :)
Tomorrow I'll call the company and harrash them with tons of annoying questions, which propably will make them all hate me :P Demo... Who cares? Mum´also promised that tomorrow we'll go down town... But *saa*, maybe she won't keep that promise either. Dunno´if I've already told you this, but a month ago I started on a new candy vow, as she promised to give me something preshious in return. But apparently she isn't going to give me anything. Yet again! *Don't expect too much from other people! You're the only one who'll be able to live up to those expectations*. Next one! Today, a total of... 29 people (I think) came, and around 17 of them were children under the age of 10 -.-'' Well... actually, it was pretty fun.. :3 I got the amount of money that I need for a "movie camera" (?) or is it a "recording camera...? and a little more:P. :D Now I'm off to count some incomes! ja mata~

Irairasaseru! >:(

I'm going nuts! And that's compeletly because of the freaking exchange company >:C Apparently, we're going to Japan the 31:th of July now. Pisses me off! Why is it so fu*king difficult to book the flight tickets for the right day!? And why can't the people in charge take responsibility? I mean, it's not our fault that the camp was moved to the 7:th, right?! So, why is it us who has to "suffer" because of their mistakes? Iradatashii... -.-¤ We don't even know where we'll be staying for that time, nor what we'll be doing >:( Well, shit happenes. You've just gotta´find a way to deal with it ^^ End of subject! :D
I've been baking cakes and cleaning for the whole day. Tomorrow we'll have my (little late) birthday party with the relatives. Not so much fun... Or wait! Brother will come! :D Lucky! It's going to be great! :3 My week is saved!... Oh... I didn't even realize how much I miss him... :P
... That's all. Now I'll watch some dramas, study and do some drooling xP Ja na~

ERROR

Oh, God. The computer is having a total brakedown! I tried to post earlier, but everything just suddenly dissapeared :< Well... It wasn't anything important... Just that the date for entering Japan has been changed :( With a week... Now I'll leave the 7:th of August... Which means that I'll have to use three airplanes to come to Japan... : / The first one's from Kallax to Arlanda. The second one's from Arlanda to London (where we'll meet the other scandinavian students :D) and the third one's (finally) from London to Narita! :D ... Well... It isn't that different from the trip to Germany I guess... ^^ Okay... We only flew twice... And neither one of those two times was for longer than... 3 hours (?)... ^^''
Hmm... Oh yeah! :D I think that I've found another student who's going to the same school in Japan, as I am! :D She's Norwegian and as old as I am (I think). Besides of that, she really seems like a great person! :3 Hopefully we'll become good friends! Yeah... once again I'm thinking ahead of myself... ^^'' Okay. Let's leave that matter for now on :)
Lately I've been addicted to YouTube :3

My top 5 most listened songs / watched music videos are:

1. Dir en grey - The Final.
2. Haruma Miura - Konjou Nashi.
3. Dir en grey - Kodou.
4. Kalafina - Oblivious.
5. NEWS - Weeek.

Most watched Dramas / Movies:

1. Tatta hitotsu no koi.
2. Negative Happy Chainsaw Edge.
3. Yukan Club.
4. Maou.
5. Gokusen. (still can't find the movie :'C).

Yupp... Maybe I should practise building sentences now... Or go to sleep?.... I wonder which one I should choose... Maybe.. bed... Yup... ~Good Night!~

Lonlienss, Grammar and Pain.

Yes... That's how it is... Once again I'm sitting here wide awake in the middle of the night... Chewing on small apricots with a gross taste... I haven't got anything special on my mind tonight... My day has been pretty boring, I've been fighting with my mother.. the whole time... The reason for this is simple and boring: her live-in maid (aka. me) isn't up for cleaning right now, because she wants to study, which she hasn't had the time to do earlier, due to her younger sister to whom she has to watch over. Hmm... I finally made up some plans with my friend for Wednesday :3 We're going to meet in the town and just hang around, enjoying our pitiful lifes (at least mine is XP). Whee... Today I was left alone home... finally all by myself ^^ This is when I realized the reason for my tardness. It's because I'm used to be alone... With no one else than Davin, around. Having people around me all the time drains all of my energy ^^'' So, during these four short hours, I could notise how much happier I became... I even sang... (That's pretty rare nowdays)... Because there was no one there who would've been ordering me around all of the time (or telling me to shut my mouth :P) ^^ Refreshing! :3 *haaa...* Atchatta!.. I've finished my apricots :P Now I'll just move on to the tea! -^^- Bye~

Feel the pressure, taste the blame.

Hmmm... I'm bored... My chat pal went down town, so I don't have anyone to write with... Brother just told mum´about the succsess (Yá know, Liu.)... I've never seen her so proud in my entire life... Not when I got accepted into the most difficult policy in all of Sweden.. neither when I showed her my grades... o(_ _)o She didn't look happy at all.. -.- In the end... hard work doesn't pay off I guess... Well... at least I did my best ^^... And can almost, be proud of myself ^^ But it was that freaking technological grade that made me fail... -_- Just a VG... Yeah... I've never been good at technology anyways :P And it's like that, no matter how hard I work, I'll never reach to the same level as my brother.. I mean, a Biomedical sciencist, who'd be able to beat that!? No matter how much better grades than him I get... Nor how much more successfull I become :P He's the first born child and that's how it's always going to be -^.^- Though, as long as I'll manage to build an own little empire around myself, nothing of those things above matters : ) An own life... Hell yeah! :3 *Facing the future with bright eyes and clear visions* ~