Amiable days..

It hurts so much :/ my stomach aches...
I took a "power nap" after I'd came back home... It was horrible... I had like two double dreams after eachother and every single one of them was a nightmare... In the first one (if I remember right) I suddenly got this awful pain inside of my head, seriously it was un-bareable... Like try to 'close' your ears, the feeling is much alike the pain you when your ears are blocking up. Then I woke up from that dream (or so I thought). When I did this, it hurt really much in my head... So when I stood up I had grown like half a metre... I think I started to scream, and when I was going to walk out of the livingroom I was so big that I couldn't fit the space our livingroom door leads to.. Not fun at all... And when I thought I woke up from this dream I only remember everything to be normal except from the horrible pain that came again... I fell asleep in this dream... And last but not least, the fourth dream (most scary one). In this one I woke up when our schools student counsellor came into our kitchen (at first I thought that it was mum'), but I pretended to sleep... When I notised that she wasn't the person that I'd took her for, I tried began walking towards the kitchen... My steps were wobbly and I couldn't get the voice out of my mouth... Suddenly dad' and sis' where there too. This was when the horrible part begun. Suddenly a wolf (huge one) appeared on our front yard, it looked around and notised us (we were inside of the house), it came to the window and started to scratch and hit it... It was so close, only half a metre away... Then suddenly we could hear more wolfs´ that tried to break into our house (these ones were at the door). I tried to yell at dad' when he had this calm look on his face, he just smiled and said that he could take them out with one shot if they came in and when I tried to yell and ask 'What about mother who will return home from work at any minute?!' but the voice just didn't come out that loud... The wolves continued to scratch and jump towards the door... Now I heard the sound of the front door opening loudly.. This is when I woke up for real, I was seriously shocked I just sat there and stared until dad' came there and started to nag because I hadn't answered his calls... This was everything for this time (sorry if the post is a bit blurry, I don't have time to glance through it) Bye.

3~days... >ö(>.<)ö<

Anger is one of the easiest feelings to express, but one of the most difficult ones to control... Isn't that right?
I've been home for the whole day (apart from a visit to the local hospital)... I'm sick. I woke up with a horrible headache and hig fever, but I stuffed myself full of pills so that I wouldn't feel anything (which I didn't do after a while) and I could live on.
I just finished watching the great drama 'Nobuta wo produce'... Are friends really worth all the hard effort and work you have to put into the relationship? This is a thing I've been wondering about lately... I mean, sure they're precious and good to have around. But is it really worth it... especially when you're the only one who cares? I wonder...
I think that I'll go to school tomorrow... Even though I feel like crap... But there is an important meeting I have to attend to...
It's three days left to the departure to Germany... I like cats ^.^ Which is good, because my host family has two of them... I just hope that they won't have freaky names, so that I'll remember them... Otherwise it'd be awkward... XP
I bought a new mp3 player today when I was waiting for the time to pass down town (1hr)... It's really cute (looks like a round, beige marble stone :D )...
*Garh...* Mum's so annoying... Right now she's nagging at me because my sis' didn't have her P.E outfit in the schoolbag today and apparently it's all my fault... man I don't get that woman at all :/ so confusing~ Well she doesn't have anything else to do, so I can't really blame her XP
Jajajaha.. I'll go and take a shower... After that I'll drug myself (compeletly numb) and go to bed...
¨-v^¨^v- Gute nacht -v^¨^v-¨

Life or...?

Five days ago my cousine came to the arctic part of Sweden (XP) so I've been with her almost for the whole week. On Saturday we were slalom skiing and on Sunday Plopp-chan had her 16:th birthday party, unfortunately I could only stay there for two and a half hours... Yes it was because of my little dominant cousine who got pissed off by the bare thought of me going to a birthday party when she was here ^-^'' But the short time I was there was super fun :D I hope that the others had as much fun after that I left (of course they had ;p ). Well today I've been at my grandparents place with my cousines family (and my lil' sis')... It was... How should I put it... Very eventful... We went to the hills, where we were supposed to grill sausage, but I just slept in the snow mobile trailer (so boring), that's when my other cousin (11 years old... I think) decided that he'd walk back to the house on his own, beause he was so bored... Well later when we were supposed to go back to the house, we discovered that he had taken the wrong path, so we had to start searching for him. Well after we'd found him we took another path so that we'd come to the original trails. But the snow mobile trail we were riding was so soft that the whole trailer (where 6 persons were sitting) tipped over... God I was so wet when we finally made it back... I hope I won't catch a cold now ^.^
Lately I've been having these horrible nightmares. For exaple, in one, mum' just suddenly collapsed to the ground, she had this emotionless look on the face... It was just as if she'd had a heart attack... I got so scared by this dream that I had to get out of the bed to check on her so that she was okay... Luckily it was just a dream...
Tomorrow the school starts again... Only a week left to the Germany trip... I wonder how it all will go... jaja. I'mma´get going now-- jaNe~

Comeback.

The blogger's back! I haven't had the time to blog in over a week.. So finally I'm reunited with my ever so faithful friend... the laptop! I spent the weekend at Mai-chans place, where she thaught me how to write a letter in Japanese... Well I have to learn how to speak the language before I compeletly will be able to write a letter all by myself... That doesn't matter though. I sent the letter to the organisation on Monday, they should've recieved it by now... So the search finally begins!.. Now I won't be able to sleep before I get a family -.-'' Today I've cleaned the bathroom, compeletly. I even washed the walls and sauna... And yes, I did all this for a payment of 100 sek (kr)... It was so tough... ^^'' No wonder that mum' had that smug look on her face when I agreed on doing it for a payment like that... She was so exited that she even told dad' about it over the phone.. ~.~ Evil woman... I hope she's pleased with herself now that she've made me suffer for a whole day... again ^-^ My cousines will be coming to our place on Friday... Yatta! I feel somewhat relieved... I don't know why...maybe it is because I haven't had anyone to talk properly to lately... Beside of that, my cousine is one of the few persons that acctually listens to me and acts as if she'd really be interested in the things I have to say, which is very rare for anyone to do... Not even my mum' cares about my opinions, which is more hurtful than annoying. Well some people sucks... I've been watching 'Nobuta wo produce', a great Japanese drama serie... Everybody can change... Is that really true?... I wonder...
This thought suddenly hit me... What do I want to become?.. If I'd get the chance to chose one thing in the whole world, what would I want to become?... A real friend, that is what I want to become... a person that everyone can trust, a person that is easy to like... Wouldn't that be wonderful? ^.^....
Yeah, by the way... I've forgot to tell you peeps' that we have our Eastern holidays right now, that's why I've been home for the whole day... Yeah, yeah~~~~
Now I'll go and do something... THE END.

Quizzzz~.*~¨..

I just took a quiz (sorry I haven't got anything better to write about ^^''), it was really fun but the results were a bit contradictory... This is what it said:
--"September"--
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized.
Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize.
Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.
Loyal but not always honest. Does work well.
Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information.
Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.
Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

Am I really that kind of a person?.. I'm not so sure about it... For example "Fun to be around"... *Cough* Wouldn't say so *cough* yeah yeah.. This was a boring post, I know.
-:END:-

La vie est belle, le destin s'en écarte.

"Life is beautiful, but destiny takes a different path." That is so true... Not everyones future is as beautiful as life, I really hope that mine will be though... As my motto says "When you're angry for a minute, you lose sixty seconds of happiness." I have no intensions of wasting my life being angry ^.^ So I'll try make the best out of every situation... So that my future will be beautiful.
This is my first post in many days. I've done so much since the last post, for example; Me, Chan-chan, Josh-chan, Puh-san, Muscleman-san, Birdie-chan, Kangelbärra Blue-chan and (a new name!).. Polarbear-san(?), spent an evening together (okay maybe a litter longer than just an evening..) and had generally just fun, even though a pedofile came and told us to get lost... Birdie-chans father got really angry at this nasty man and show´d him where his place was... It was really fun ^-^ (I really respect Birdie-chans father). I just recieved a message from AnnBritt who asked me to come over to their place and stay there from next Friday to Sunday, so that Mai could learn me how to write a Japanese letter to the host family... Oh my God how I am looking frowards to that weekend! Mai is so nice ^^ I've been chatting with a girl from Germany, who I (propably) will spend the week with (in April). She's really nice and interesting, she's going to be an exchange student in August too! What a coincidence. Only that she'll be going to Latvia for ten months. But still so cool. (I learned some german from her too... BEIR! That's all I need to survive there) :D ehehee... Yeah... A girl from our parallell class assaulted Chan-chan a while ago, and this was compeletly without any reasons, later that chick said that *I only wanted to fight*... Talking about screwed... Today I haven't done so much... I've been down town with mum... and slept... That's about everything. Tomorrow I'll be vaccinated again and stuff like that... Well later then~ Oh... By the way I forgot to tell you that I got an upper ear and belly piercing last week. C~ya

Fast Post.

I don't have much time so I'll make this short. On Sunday I arrived home around 10.pm. Monday I did the English test and turned in the Swedish essay papers. Tuesday - Today, I woke up at 5.am. to prepare the surprise for mother who has her fortysecond birthday today. I made a small birthday cake, piled up her birthday presents on the kitchen table and ligt the candle on the cake. When she came downstairs (around 6.am) she was very happy to see all this, which is pretty unusual for mum'... Because of this I've been very happy the whole day. Nyappy! ^-^ Now I'm off. Byebyee~

Long summary.

Now that I have time, I'll make a long summary of this week^^

To begin with, the reason why I'm here in Tampere is because I wanted to see An Café live, and so I did :D (more later). I'm living at my cousines place (where I am right now). I came here on Tuesday a seven hours long train ride (it didn't feel that long)... all I did was read a really good book with the name Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen (Josh-chan you really should read it), and listen to music. The day after I'd arrived was the long awaited day AN CAFE! Firstly we dressed up really cute for the concert. I wore a tricot blazer with a grey t-shirt on, a pair pink leggings and a turquise mini skirt (and of course my sweet reebok shoes). My cousine had a pair of black leggings with knee high socks on, a black vest and a check mini skirt (so cute!). After we had done that we left for the concert... To find the (around) 1,5 km long queue -.-'' We had to queue for about 1 hour and 45 minutes to get in... It was freezing cold. When we finally got in we looked like a pair of Ice chicks... The place where the live was held... It was so smaaaalll... I can't believe that over 1500 peeps could fit in there. We got pretty close to the stage... about five metres. When the concert begun I seriously thought that I was going to be stone-deaf after the concert. I mean imagine around 1500 chicks screaming their lungs out... OMG o_o The guys... THEY WERE SOOOO CUTEEE!! seriously! They look exactly as good in the real life as in the pictures. And the music was so good! Miku sounded exactly like in the cd´s (no he wasn't mimicing, this was the real shit man)... Sooo cute...

This is Miku-san. it was really hard to get any pictures because of all the crazy girls who were waving around with their hands.

And you can never guess what I've got! Look!

Cute huh^^ ? It's a vest, I bought it from the concert... okay this wasn't the thing I was going to show you..

You can never guess what I've got.. Or can you? Nop. look what I've got, look what I've got!

(The picures are a bit bad) Do you know what it is?... Well it says An Cafe on this side...

And on this side it is : Kanon. Date of Birth: July 5th (crab). Blood Type: 0. Hobby: Take a wark (yes it is with a r) in AKI-BA. Favourite food: Chicken ramen. Body piercings: 1.

It's Kanon-sans plectrum :D He threw it of stage and it flew right on my cousine, but nobody else than me notised that so I got it -^.^- Nyappy people... At one point of the concert Miku threw a mumin teddy to the audience... Well in the end there was like two girls fighting over it... Really they were fighting for their lifes ^^'' Creepy.. well I didn't have to fight for this one, luckily... I lost my red cap at the concert! it fell at some point (I'd tied it around my neck) I am so depressed :( Well you've gotta' do sacrifices for something better... But still... The chick from Explorius is really bugging me, for my luck the papers have arrived there, but then suddenly the woman e-mailed me that 'you've forgotten to send your personal letter in Japanese along'.. I was like WTF. The webbsite says that you don't have to have any kind of knowledge about the Japanese language, and then they come up with something as freaky as that -.-'' Luckily I have a Japanese friend in Sweden who've invited me to stay over at her place for a weekend so that she could help me with the letter and generally teach me Japanese... Thnx Mai! Well this was everything for this time, now I'll go and see if well go and get "pierced" today (me, my cousine and her friend are gonna get belly piercings) it's nice not to have to get it alone.. Well Bye Bye Sayooooounara!

Distress

I just recieved a call from my mum', she said that the people from Explorius had phoned her yesterday and asked how I was doing with the papers... She meant the files that I sent two weeks ago -.- I don't know what to do... I feel so mizerable, I mean, what if they won't recieve them and all the freaking hard work was for nothing? I swear that I'll make the people who've delayed the post suffer, if the files won't reach explorius office before the 22 of May. That's the last day.... After that I won't be able to send anything there... I'll so fucking kill them if they don't deliver the files... By the way, I notised that I'd messed up with the name of one of the movies we watched, it was "Tummien perhosten koti" (the home of the dark butterflies) and not "Mustien perhosten koti" (the home of the black butterflies) I sincerely apologize for this mistake of mine. That was everything for this time again, goodbye.

Far from home

Right now I'm in Tampere, I've been here for approximately 19 hours now. And so far it've been so much fun. Even though the train ride lasted for seven hours, it didn't feel as long. It was like 'over in a few minutes'. I'm a bit lost in my thoughts and drowsy, because I just woke up... Today's An cafés concert ^.^ I hope it'll be fun.
I'm kind of home alone so I'll go and take the dog out for a walk. Bye~