Mani mania~*-:*

Good morning sweethearts<3
What's up? :) As usual it's been a while since the last post, though this time I've been seriously busy managing things, coping with the new lifestyle and constantly arguing with my lovely boyfriend. No seriously, I love him. Guess that's the only reason I'm still hanging around... Well, my new class consists of nothing knowing kids (people born -95), who're still too naive for their own good. And my weeks include six classes in pedagogy and one in PE. So no hard work here. It's the personal life which has demanded most of my free hours. Searching for a new apartment and trying to balance the relationship and friends - Not an easy job, especially not when you don't share the same friends together, so I tend to end up staying home with him instead... Not good, no... Well, In a week I'll be enjoying the warmth of Turkey! This is something I'm seriously looking forvards to! Just me, Mum and lil'Sis hundreds of miles from the cold breezes of Sweden's bold landscape. Just the thought makes me jump with anticipation :)
Yesterday I was at the hair-dresser, so now my hair is about ten centimeters shorter and looks more alive with some pink highlights. I can admit being very pleased with the result.
Later on today I'll be going back home to Boden and who knows, maybe pay my boyfriend a visit (but just maybe), but I don't know... I don't feel like being walked all over this evening... Maybe tomorrow instead :) BUT!! Now I'll be busy doing my sister's nails. She wants a beach theme so some gold, dark and lightblue should do it. Bye~

Lousy day?

wake up 5AM, paintiiing~ for four hours~ and then a nap^^ I'm at my parent's place, working (why would I othervise be here? xD). My mission: paint the house. Pay: fair enough ;) I enjoy painting a lot^^ The nap, though, wasn't as enjoyable... I had a hideous nightmare (aaaas usually :P). This one was one of the worst I've ever had... My mother told me she was dying and that me and my sister were going to be sent away and separated >.< Now why wouldn't we just live with dad? well, he's already dead in my dreams... I woke up crying, in the dream I was at my father's funeral... They both seemed so real :'( too real... I hate sleeping, maybe I should stop doing it :P
When I woke up I painted my sister's fingernails, they turned out to be good :) (She liked them too xD). After doing this I consumed a full coffee pot :'D That's pretty much all I've consumed today^^" And a few green apples *yummy* :D I've also driven the car for the first time in my entire life! :D It went really well! I will get a driving license! And on this one I'm very determined >3< To the autumn I'll begin on the BF policy, and become a nanny or something ;) I dunno :P Well, apart from this all, my life's been pretty happeningless^^ Oh yeah, then mum came home and ruined my day :P (the same routine as usually). Now I'm off to take a shower (have been running so I'm sweaty *yack*). Bye~ -My

April~Avril~Huhtikuu~

Wahaha!! xD OMG! I just read through my last post (only briefly though). I would never have been able to imagine it possible for my life to change this much during only three months (without moving to another country :P) :O
Well, then, I guess it's time for an update... Hmm... Firs off we could begin with my happy-go-lucky life... Which isn't that H-go-L anymore ^^" A month after our engagement, my boyfriend confessed to have slept with another chick two nights before... This was on our "anniversary" for a month of engagement. Well, what can I say.. Some people get cold feet and fuck things up... and end up hurting the other one... So, I've been kind of struggling with that matter, it really brought me down :(
BUT! I'm over it now ^^ Also! :) I've moved to a new place a bit outside of the actual town a week ago :D It's approximately 5km from school, to where I make my way by bicykle every morning :3 And I can afford it without any help from the parents (aka. own incomes). Independence... Honestly, it's one of the greatest feelings :) Hmm... There's too much, I can't even remember everything >.> Eeh... I've made a lot of new friends... I've scored full points on a history test! (believe me, if it would be graded by the knowledge of happenings, it'd be easy... When it comes to interpretations and differing, it's a complete new story :P). Homework, homework, and some more homework... nah.. I'm too tired, thus I shall continue another evening ;) Good Night Sweethearts~ XoooXooo My <3

OMG o.O I just lost one more year of of my lifespan!!

Well, that was it for the "could never imagine myself married" statement. You'll never, ever be able to even imagine what happened!! Me, Sam and a friend of ours, spent the New Year's Eve at Jonna and Jense's house (in a nearby town). We enjoyed ourselves by drinking and playing video games in the evening. When the time slowly got closer to midnight, we went outside to lance some minor fireworks (which ended up with the slightly *cough* drunk friend, firing one at Sam--> accidentally though). After the clock'd stroke twelve, and the fireworks were all launched, Sam got down on one knee and asked me if I wanted to get engaged to him!!! <3 I was so shocked that I couldn't do anything other than just hug him with all the guts I had, and nod almost frantically :D So! Now I'm an engaged "woman" :3 Couldn't see that coming a year ago, couldn't you!? ^^ At least I couldn't :P After pondering about it, I've came to the conclusion that there probably isn't anything I couldn't imagine myself doing with Sam... Other than getting kids, at this stage.. God! I feel like the luckiest person on the entire planet at this moment!! x3 Sorry, just can't get over it ^^" Also, I'm sort of moving into his place tomorrow~ Not entirely though, but like, bring some of my clothes and belongings to his home... Toothbrush, personal hygiene stuff and things like that. So that I won't have to stop by at the apartment as frequently anymore. AAH!! This awfully wide grin just won't get off my face! x3
So, now I'm gathering together a bag of belongings and picking out some small stuff to bring there tomorrow :) and... Maybe with some patience and time... Someday, I will be the one to walk down the aisle in a white dress into his arms... *haaa* what a wonderful thought, indeed ^^
2010 was a year that just flew by... Honestly, now looking back I don't remember much of it... It feels as if it was years and years ago that I returned from Japan, even though that was a mere six months ago... It is difficult to believe that ones life can possibly change this fast :O I mean; Jonna and Jens decided to get married, so did Hen-chan and his girlfriend too, I came here and fell in love.. And most strange of all, I managed to establish a new life in the mere time of four months... which is six months less than it required in Japan... Somehow amazing when you think of it.. Though, I can't say that it was easy, no, vice versa, it was really difficult.. But I managed with the help of all the wonderful people who volunteered to take care, and teach me the ways of coping with life in this new town <3 I really am thankful for it^^
Now, I think I'll go and take a shower, and after that who knows, maybe I'll even be tired enough to fall asleep in the empty, (and most of all) cold bed of mine ^^
Bye~ and! Happy New Year for everybody! <3 :3

Fed up with Ham :P

We wish you a Merry Christmas~ We wish you a Merry Christmas~ We wish you a Merry Christmas~ and a happy New Year! (^o^)/:. I'm soooo psyched up for New Year! (not the actual year, but the Eve ;D).Christmas Eve was awesome! I didn't recall Christmas being so nice! I worked on my assignments most of the day, but just the fact that everybody were gathered for the same purpose at the grandparent's place, was very sweet. It felt so cozy... this traditional yearly event^^ Okay, I have to admit that it'd been pretty sour if it weren't for a certain uncle Linus (just a nickname xD)who kept me company through the entire day (and coming night) ^^ --> cellphone :D Speaking of which! I finally got a new cellphone!! :3 (my old one broke down a while ago, and I've been using a crappy piece of shit ever since then >.>). It's soooo~ nice! Love it <3 Even though it's not one of these fancy new touch screen thingys´:P I also (to my boyfriend's and... pretty much all of my friend's joy) got all the Twilight books and movies in English for Christmas present (an Eclipse soundtrack CD too!) xD Wool socks from my cousin, ten packs of pockys´ from sweetheart,Ulquiorra<3 poster--> Uncle Linus, Cellphone-> parents´, some household stuff and so on :3 Perfect is all I can say :D
It feels so strange... Two really good friends of mine are getting married this coming year... And for one of them I'll even be the bridesmaid ^^ (okay, the other one's a guy... me as a bestman? Maybe not xD). Also, my uncle's getting married in January too... I don't know, marriage just seems so out of reach for me... I've finally found someone whom I seriously love and want to spend every second of the day with, but the thought of marriage just hasn't crossed my mind :o Though, I've really began to anticipate the school ball! :3 I want to wear a beautiful dress and walk hand in hand with the most handsome man~* And later on, PARTY!!! xD nah, just joking~ ooor? ;D noo... For marriage there's just too much required, much that I do not have...
Well I'm off skyping with Uncle Linus~ Bye~ :D

There is more to life than simply increasing its speed.

Someone once told me to prioritize my life, freedom- or the glory of a high education... If there was to come a day when these two paths would separate, would I then be brave enough to choose the one I really yearn for? Though, would it really be courage, or just mere foolishness?
Would I be a fool to do as I so much yearn for: apply for a spot at a local shop of some sort and just live for the moment, or should I- against my inner wishes- carry through with the education, in the hope of something greater... Something to be proud of?.. *A glorious but lonely life?* Isn't that what it all is about in the end? Become a "pro", and forget the wish for having a real family, a happy relationship? I mean, look at them all, world wide known surgeons, lawyers, professors... all alone, almost every single one of them. Loneliness indeed is very frightening... No matter which path you choose to follow, you're brave huh?
''Is it your life or everyone else's?'' Is another question he posed. It is true, thus I had never before thought about this, as Ghandi once said: "A 'No' uttered from the deepest conviction is better than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or worse, to avoid trouble" - This is what I've been doing all my life, uttered "yes" in order to avoid conflicts with others. But, if I keep on bending and shaping myself into everyone else's molds, what will my life turn out like? Good question ne :o
Well, for all I know, I'm loosing the hold of my reality, my structure, and my security. But it feels good, "the bubble which I once created around of me, has now burst, and left me in this whole new world which I cannot wait to explore". :) "the world of an almost adult" ;D Well, well, we'll see what this life eventually has to offer me ^^ Good Night peeps´~

These endless beginnings

Long time no see, huh... Let's see if I'll manage to pull off a post worth reading now that I finally, for the first time since returning to Sweden, am going to try start blogging again.
I've been back in Sweden for the last..4? or is it already 5 months? I've moved out into an own apartment in a new town (due to school). I am currently attending the IB policy at upper secondary school, and am one year older than everyone else there.
There we go, a brief explanation on how my life's been... What more is there to say? The return from Japan was excruciating. For weeks and weeks I felt down, and my social life seemed to have completly died away (not until recently did I managed to begin the emprovements concerning this matter).
I love to live alone in an own apartment :) I love my new classmates (couldn't have hoped for better ones), and I just love to be able to attend a school where I actually learn something. These are my "3 loves" in this, yet again, so new life of mine. Sorry, can't come up with anything better to write about~ :P
My brain's stopped to work for the moment... Maybe I should just give up for now, and go to bed >.>
Spokoinoi nochi~ <3 ^^
Ps. I'll be back in a matter of time for a second round! (just to actually write something worth reading ^^") You just wait and see what I come up with :3 Ds.

Last post from home

That's what this "the last post from my home"... It's impossible to explain how bad it feels to even think about it... I'll be on an airplane back to Sweden at this time in not even 3 days... I don't want to lose my home (;_;) And the worst part, leave Yuuki here >.< I seriously feel like vomiting by the thought of that >x<
Did I already tell you that I got accepted into the school which I applied for (in Sweden) again ;P So I'll be moving the first of August, to an own apartment. Well, I guess it's better that way... I've kind of got used to handling everything by myself so... ^^ I'm looking forwards to furnish the apartment :D
Tomorrow I'll meet Yuuki (just the 2 of us) for the last time this year. He's determined on coming to Sweden in March 2011 though ^-^ I love him <3
So, when I get back it'll be: hospital visits, dentist, hairdresser, shopping (need new clothes->old ones are way too big) etc.
Now I'll eat and continue playing with my dear little brother <3
==>forgot to actually publish this yesterday xD
Byebye～次のはスウェーデンで､だねー

-286 +22 -6160

久しぶりな～あんまりやる気がないと別に何も､特別な事してないからブログに書くの方がちょっとめんどくさいになった=.="エヘへ･･文法が全部間違っているでしょう？xDまぁ…仕方ないな～バカしー勉強もしないしー;P 今から英語で!!
Again, a very long time has passed since the last time I updated this blog... a month? :O
You know what they say "Time flies by". Which it in this case, does way too fast! >.< When I check my cellphone`s date counter... It tells me, I've lived for 6160 days, so far been in Japan, for 286 and only have 22 days left :(
Well, gotta' make the best out of these last 3 weeks ^.^
Hmm... What's been happening lately?... I've been to Japans` highest mountain "Fujisan" (Mt.Fuji). We "climbed" halfways up it (by car ;D). It was absolutely beatiful! Seriously. The wiew, everything, so amazing >.< I've also been to a... adventure zoo? One of those you drive around with a car in :D I saw a live zebra for the first time in my life! (I think)... When we returned from the trip, I got sick, with the flue (vomited and had bad diarrhea for two days). But despite of that I still went to school (on the third day), to participate in the "undoukai" aka. "sports festival". It was great! Even though I felt like puking most of the time, it was so much fun! ^^
Oh yeah... I forgot! It's been a while since I last wrote, so our classes in school has changed. Nowadays I'm in class 201, (student)number 31. My new class is perfect! I love it :) The people I hang out with are called Mai and Yuuri =3 You could almost call them something like "best friends" or likewise(^o^)☆♡ I wish I'd be able to graduate with those two (^3^)～♡☆
I completely lost the thread while watching "the differences between gaijins (non Japanese) and Japanese people"... It's reeeally funny! xD And everything's so true!! ahahaaa... Like "Japanese women are angels until you marry one of them" ^^" 面白かった~
By the way! Today has been the most warm day so far ^o^ 29 degrees Celcius, in the shadows :3 超熱かったなぁー Tomorrow I'm going to Enoshima with Yuu-chan and the day after tomorrow, to Hase (tea-club). I'm so looking forwards to it! ^^

Then Byebye～
Take care peeps'!
(Btw, sry 4 this lousy English >.> Can't help it ne)

2月10日

Yes... That is the amount of time that I still have left here... Until this new life of mine once again falls apart and, the old one has to be recreated in Sweden. Makes me sad... Well... I kind of miss the candies and hamburgers in Sweden (that's all though :P). But, guess I'll have to stop by there and finish the upper secondary school and, after that try to get a transferred to some university here in Japan ^-^
Or just take the easy way out: Marry Yuu-chan xD Btw. I met his mother a few weeks ago ~-~ God it was scary, but seems like I wasn't such a huge failure because, she told him to marry me =.= (after they'd got back home though). Hehe... No, I think I'll stick to the University plan :3
Lately I've got addicted to this drama named "Nodame Cantabile". Every time I'm watching it I, get this urge to start playing piano again ^^"
I've already god a huge pile of plans to follow through when I get back to Sweden. One of them includes the part of picking up the piano playing again. I've figured that I'd like to improve my cooking skills too and, also try shorten the time until my graduation from the upper secondary school (which normally would be after the period of 3 years time)... Maybe if evening school would be possible... And also the fact that I have to find a part time job, too... Well, everything will have to wait until I get back. Now I'll just concentrate on the present which, includes 7 new exchange students in the school and a class full of completely new people :D I'll miss the old ones though. :/
I didn't have any special reason or anything to write. Just thought that it'd be nice with a post now that the month once again changed :)
Oh yeah! I almost forgot! The sakura trees are blooming now! :D They're absolutely gorgeous! But I have to admit that I prefer the Ume treas (simple but pretty).
That's all for now on! さようなら～