Education. Prefecture.

Hi. It's been a little while since last time... again. I haven't had any time nor will to blog. Because of the party that is tomorrow, I won't have that much time now either. I just wanted to tell you the big news! I recieved an e-mail from the exchange company the 30:th of June, which contained information about the school that I've been placed to! :D Kanagawa prefecture. Kamakura-city. Shichirigahama senior high school :D I surfed on the internet in hope of finding a little more information about this place when I came across a Finnish girls´blog, and surprise, surprise. This girl is attending the school that I'll enter ^^ She's a year older than me and has been there ever since March I think it was... However my point is that, I somehow feel a bit more at ease, because now there'll be at least one person whom I can talk with, without any hardships... Though... Of course there's the fact that maybe she doesn't want to talk Finnish when she's there, or maybe we won't get along. There are too many factors to even be conciedered. God... I'm fuzzing again. I haven't even met the person yet!
Now there's only the visa and family left... It feels as if the weight is slowly beginning to decrease from my chest. I can even breathe easier and I don't get panic attacs as often anymore ^^ *sattee* Now I've gotta´go and clean up this mess! Ureshikuu! My friends will be coming over tomorrow ^.^ I'm so happy! -:THE END:-

31 Days left...

And there it went, the last day of June 2009... Now there's only one single month separating me from Japan... I definitely won't lose to those thirty-one days! o(_ _)o But, I still can't help it... The doubt creeps up on me every single time I start thinking about the future... I mean, what if I won't get a family? Or even worse a visa?.. These thoughts causes me minor panic attacs every time they're brought up ^^''... Seriously... even one of these two would be a dissappointment that I wouldn't be able to handle... Still let's hope for the best!! Right now I'm working on my presentation... Wonder if something like "Hajimemashite. Watashi wa Shizuka desu. Sweden kara kimashita. Watashi wa juuroku sai desu. Nihongo o benkyo shimasu. Nihongo o oshiete kudasai. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu!" would sound good? *Saaa*... I guess that I'll just have to ask Mai ^.^ ... I haven't heard from my friends in a while... Nanka sabishii desu yo ne.. Wonder what they've been up to? I hope everyones´ summer holidays´has been great so far! :D Even though mine hasn't *cough* ^^'' I woke up around one o'clock yesterday (Tuesday)... After that I've been working my ass of to keep my sister pleased while baking Pizzas and test cakes. Man! Mia-chan your cake aint´that frigging´easy to make! XD Somehow I became to understand my sister better that day... I realized something... Videlicet - She had ambition in her eyes... Not like a normal first grader usually has, but a lot more... This was while she was telling me about her plans for the future... It's true that she still is on the level of an eight years old child - emotionally. But she's not as stupid as they usually are... I could almost say that she's clever... Yeah. Let's leave that matter for now. I'm not sure if I've already wrote this, but I'm having a goodbye/birthday party on Saturday... I've invited a lot of people, but only around eighteen persons is notified to come... and like... five of them are guys : / Well you can't have everything ^^'' That's a thing everyone should learn the moment they enter the world :) I've started watching this Tv drama called "Rookies"...*drool *~* It's good, even though it seemed incredibly dull in the beginning... But who cares! It's loaded with awsome, hot guys playing the 10 (?) main roles :x Well, seriously, the story is pretty good too =) ... If you'll excuse me, I have some drooling that has to be done. Sayounara~

五十 - ついに完成!

I've finally done it. I've managed to write fifty kanjis without any help :D Now I'll only have to learn how to keep a one minute long introduction of myself... That's going to be difficult... These are some of the kanjis that I've learned :
母、父、心、石、右、子、友、青、緑、白、赤、 車、牛、犬、猫、大、 愛、小、神、花。雨。家族。本。日。月。山。川。火。水。金。男。女。木。一。二。四。千。
They're not that hard to remember...
My summer vacation, so far, has been pretty un eventful. Today I woke up at three o'clock (PM)... I feel a lot calmer than I did when we still had school... Or maybe I should say "emptier" instead of "calmer". yeah... It's as if my life'd ended with the school... Well. Now it's time to begin building on a new life for myself, now that I don't have any spesific place to belong to^.^ *yawn... I think I'll try finding a site where I can watch a movie named "Negative happy chainsaw edge", it's supposed to be good and one of my favourite actors are in it, so I'll give it a go. Ja mata~

*Haaa...*

This is going to be a fast one. My sister is having her second birthday party for this week... Today it's the relatives turn to stop by and congrat her. She turndes 8 last Fiday... I was planning to sleep over at my brothers place tonight, just for fun... And of course to get some time off from the family ^^ Even though it doesn't seem like it, it's incredibly tardy to be living with two females :P I don't have much more to tell you this time... So I think that I'll just vanish for now ~

Tadaima!... Okaeri...?

Here we are again... Sitting in front of the computer while listening to mums´ talk about how I'm such a horrible child ^^'' This time it's the topic "Host family"... And the last sentence payed attention to "I wonder how long they'll have the energy to listen to your talk, you're such a horrible kid without any manners..." I can't really remember how the "discussion" went on... But I think it was something like "I'm tired of listening to you. Always so annoying. It's good that I'll only have to stand you for one and a half months anymore." ^.^ Well it's true. I'm almost one hundred per cent sure that they'll all be much happier without me hanging around the family as a loose particle. Only family in the house ya´ know :) That'd at least be my policy if I had a home with people living in it... Did I already tell you about how the week at my cousines place went?.. Well if I didn't, then read the earlier post about... Tuesday? (I think it was.) It pretty much describes my week... =_='' Never more... Only 1,5 months left... huh... ^^ That time'll (hopefully) fly by in a blink of the eye :)
Now I'll have to go and pack my things together (mum's all nuts, because two of my bags are lying on the bench.) Ja~na~

Never wanted*

Finally! I've got access to a computer!! Or should I rather say that *I've got permission to be on the computer -.-''* Right now I'm in Tammerfors, at my cousines place. Where I've been ever since Saturday... It seriously feels like I've been here for ages! I wanna´go home... never thought that I'd say that.. ^^'' Well there's only... six days left... -.- I can't stand this... Right now my cousine is sitting on the floor with her friend and her nine... scallops... (I don't even know if that's what they're called)... She has... should I say "a bit" odd preference for house pets... Well... yeah... there are man different kinds of people in this world... Which is good... I mean. Imagine how boring life'd become if everybody was exactly alike.. God... As you propably know, Friday was the last day of my nine years of complusory school, which made me sad... "This is the last day that I'll step into that building as a student of it. After this day I'll become a total stranger to the people there... My place in the teachers daily lifes will be filled with a new student... It's difficult to imagine a life without the present people... I'm going to miss this life of mine... so much..." this is exactly what I was thinking for (almost) the whole Friday... Heh* I'm jumping from one subject to the other ^^'' Sorry for that...
You're propably thinking that I'm a stupid idiot, because I'm staying such a long time at a place where I seriously don't want to be... The thing is... My Mum´ doesn't want to have me around on Midsummer... So she told me that I should stay here and "enjoy" my summer holidays... But the truth is that she doesn't have the energy nor the will to be around me... Well I guess it's good that I'll be going away for a while ^.^ So that she'll be able to rest ad forget about all the trouble I'm causing her :) Well... This post was a bit messy. I apologise for that. And now it's time for me to leave. Bye~

*YaWn*

Good morning my dear blog followers. I don't have much time, so I'll make this one short. There has been so much going on this week, that I haven't had the time to blog. So let's take a short glance through my week. On Monday we had our long awaited "Finishing-dinner", that is kept among the ninth graders and the teachers... It was incredibly fun! I got a diploma that said "This years migratory bird" and a (home made) flag representing Japan... This somehow made me a bit sad... It's like the reality would've struck me... After tomorrow I propably won't meet these people anymore... This truth scares me... Because I don't want to lose any friends! :( Well I'll do my best with keeping in touch with the closest ones though... I definitely won't let go of them! ^^, On Tuesday I went to my grand parents place, where I decided to stop eating candy until the first of August. Wednesday was a horrible day. I went to the town with my mum´ in the hope of finding a dress for the breaking-up that takes place on Friday. But no matter where we searched the dresses would be strange and even ugly -.- and then, surprise, surprise, mum´began blaming me for this and nagging "I shouldn't have come with you! I have much more important things to do than go searching for an unnecessary dress! You can use one of your old ones!". How come that parents just can't understand when you tell them that it's an important once a lifetime occasion, where you want to look as perfect as possible. That will say, you won't have on some old rags from the closet! Well, who cares? Certainly not she -.- I'll go shopping by myself today, and I pray to God that I'll find something! Now I've gotta´go! Bye~

Hellöö

What a nice day... Gloomy clouds covering the sky... *Haa...* Friday was so nice... Me and a group of friends grilled and played soccer the whole evening :) Right now I'm waiting in my room, for the guests to arriwe. My brother's going to have his graduation party today... Grandma´has baked some incredibly tasty cookies (the sort that I never succeed with)... And mum´has been up ever since the early morning, she's been decorating the cakes... *drool* they're so nice looking ^^ I wish that someday I'll be able to make as good bakings as they both do :D Wonder if it'll begin raining and thundering... I hope it won't... :/ And there it went.. My mind slipped again :( There hasn't been a single day ever since I got accepted, that I haven't been thinking about Japan... Please someone help me, just one day... Give me one day when I don't have to worry about it... The thought has became a bother... Rather than joy I feel tardy and fed up... Jah jah.. Now positive thoughts!... can't come up with any -.-'' GACKT! He's so cool ^^, The way he sings... He compeletly puts his soul and mind into it... It's almost as if you'd be able to hear his thoughts through the words that you can't understand... OH! * I think my cousines arriwed now. Gotta´go C-ya~

Congratz´ bigbro´!

Hello peeps. Today was the last day of my brothers twelveyears long education (school years). That will say - he got his degree! He graduated from the "Natural Science Programme" (upper secondary school) :D It's impossible to portray my feelings about this... Maybe the closest description would be the simple word "Proud"... Yes.. that's the word... proud... ^^ I hope that someday I'll be standing on the stage with a white (degree) cap on my head too! And maybe my sister will feel the same way as I do now? (as if that'd ever occur XP.) My grand parents (from mums´side) came over today and... cleaned -.- My grandma´is something I'd like to call an "almost pedant" person... Even though me and my sister had tidy´ed up the place before they came, she still could find incredibly many "misstakes" with it all :/ Well, we're going to have big bros´ graduation party on Sunday... So I guess It's just good that they came over to our place right? ^^, My camera's getting full :( I only have something like eighteen or twenty spaces left... (When the camera's empty there are around 750 spots.) So I'm in a pinch right now, with all the coming feasts and everything! You know the cake I was talking about in yesterdays post? Yeah, well I kind of ended up (almost) eating it all by myself... I guess it wasn't that tasty... Mum only took one piece of it... Sis´ didn't take any (I think) and the same goes for dad´... Though my grandma´ate one piece... But that doesn't matter does it... I guess I'll give up on baking for now on ^-^ It's better to leave it to someone who can make tasty cakes right? :) Well I'm going to continue watching this Japanese drama now (name: Bloody Monday.) It's really good and has an incredibly "hot" lead actor :D (Miura Haruma) *gaah* If you excuse me, I'm going to start drooling now ^^ JaMata~

Tokyo the 1 of august 2009 :D

Oh God. It's already June... The time has passed by so fast... It feels as if it was yesterday that I told Ess that "It feels as if this is the real beginning of my life" (this actually happened the first of January -09)... It's hard to believe, but soon... so soon... I'll find myself in Japan. Tokyo to be more precise (for the first three weeks at least), where the language camp is going to take place. *haaa...* Now I'm seriously longing for that day to come... Guess what! I just baked a cinnamon bun cake :) In the end it turned out to be pretty good (haven't tasted it yet though). It's a pity that I can't find my USB cable for the camera, othervise I would've posted a picture of it :/ Well, it consists of many cinnamon buns that has been stucked together, and it also has icing on the top... I'm seeing forvards to hearing mums' opinion about it... Wonder if she'll like it... Yup.. Today was a pretty "chill" day in school. I finished my trousers in the textile craft and learned that my teacher (still) is a total hag... (sorry for that, I just had to get it out of me :P).. The reason for this is that she propably won't raise my grades, even though I've busted my ass of on those freaking ugly pair of trousers >( Well some people just can't appreciate hard work. *Oh* I almost forgot, I also had my second P.E class with the fifth graders... Not easy at all... They're a little too noisy for my taste. But in the end everybody listened and played the game I told them to. "I feel great. Not a single thing to worry about!" is what I'd like to say, but it would be a big fat lie ^^'' Well now I'm off, to clean my room. Sayounara~ Oh! By the way dad's coming home today! (haven't seen him in ten days) Maybe I'll force him to take a bite of the pretty cake that I've made!~