Full moon.

There's a full moon outside right now... It's so beautiful. And just to complete the mood, I've began watching a drama called "Vampire boy". So far it seems good... An asocial, handsome guy who can play the piano as the main character, isn't too bad. Yesterday I managed to cut my finger, while trying to open a jar of tinned white beans in tomato sauce... It kind of hurts now...
Two days from now, I'll (hopefully) be in Japan... Landed just a moment ago... On my way to the Japanese language school, to the brief meeting and after that the real adventure begins... Substitute host family´s, long beaches and loads and loads of new people (who hopefully will like you).
Have you ever heard the saying "There are three people in the world who look like yourself"... This actually is a fact and not just a saying... I wonder who the three other persons that look like me, are? Where do they live? What's their names?... Are they happy? *saa...*
I've never before wanted to stay home this badly... Nor have I ever felt this kind of urge to leave... Strange, huh... Scared for the unknown, but yet longing for it.
I've lost around 2 kg of weight in a week, not too bad, huh..? Just (at least) 7 more to go and I'll be satisfied.
The article in NSD didn't turn out to be so bad. Even though I looked like a dai-hana freak in the picture... and the other reporter seemed kind of pissed at me...(?) Well, not everyone can be satisfied. No matter what you do, that'll never, ever, happen. Good Bye~

Butterflies flying.

*Just noticed* I haven't blogged in a while (again). The family trip went well. Even though I hated pretty much, every single moment of it. Luckily we're back home again and even though the time is crawling by, it's only 3 days until the departure date :) On Thursday I'm going to stay over at my dad´s workplace in the "hospital city". It's a "factory camp" where he lives from Monday to Friday every week. Then early, on Friday morning, I'll be flying far, far away from this present life of mine... I don't know whether to be happy or sad...? I'll leave my friends and family behind for almost a whole year. But still, I'm heading towards a compeletly new start, a new life... A life that I can make to whatever I want to... This is where the real battle begins... Is what Shinonome Mei´s Grandfather told her. Kind of fits into this situation of mine. ^^'' I've had the two interviews now. Hopefully I won't look too stupid on the pictures (as I usually do). All of the packing are finished and I'll get my visa along with my passport on Arlanda. Everything seems to be working out quite well... But still it feels as if there's going to be something blocking my way to acieving my dreams... Maybe just self conciousness? Whatever I do, things tend to turn out wrong. So, it's pointless to get your hopes up on anything. The feeling of dissapointment... it hurts too much. That's a thing that I've learned a fairly long time ago. I've spent this day with Jonna-chan. It was somewhat calming to have her around... (?) Wonder why :) That's a friend to be cherished. I wonder... Ima wa minasan ni nani o shitemasu ka... (propably not even right -.-). The first 3 weeks will be spent with people called a "Welcoming family" in other words, a substitute family in Tokyo. Well, for the time being, I haven't recieved any information concerning the family... I'm pretty sure that no one wants me xP. Who would? A complete stranger living at their place, and on top of that, a stranger who doesn't speak the language -.-'' ... One of the reporters asked me what kind of expectations I had for the coming year... That's when I realized that all of the earlier images and stuff in my head was gone. I have no longer any kind of special thoughts of what'll be awaiting me in the future... Just the one and only thing that I'm sincerely hoping for: That I'll become fluent in the language. Everything else makes no difference. ^^ Though, I'd love to make a bunch of new friends and have the time of my life. =3 Yeah. I'll propably update you later if I'd happene to recieve any kind of information. Oyasumi~